It doesn't matter how hard I try I always seem to loose all the strength when I need it the most.

Lyrics to A Little Bit Longer : Jonas Brothers


Got the news today
Doctor said I had to stay
A little bit longer and I'd be fine
When I thought it'd all be done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine


But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know, no, no.
You don't even know.

All this time moves by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
Waitin' on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don’t know what you got 'til it's gone
You don’t know what it’s like to feel so low.
And every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don’t even know, no, no.
You don’t even know, no, no.
You don’t even know, no.

But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone.
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low, yeah!
And every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don’t even know!
Yeah!

So I'll wait 'til kingdom come.
All the highs and lows are gone.
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
I’ll be fine

hay its MERRY CHRISTAMS EVE!
Oh yeah. .

Let me ask you something, what do you say to mate when he says, " she had 2 take me so high b4 she dropd me as well " *sad face*

Whats wrong with me? I still cant figure it out... Always feeling sick always being dizzy I have tried everything but why wont it take the pain away? I hate looking at myself because all I see is a skelaton nothing to be proud of, once upon a time it was something to brag about, how far you could get your bones to stick out and now all it is to me is a curse, everyone can see it, It doesnt matter how many layers of clothes I wear they still wont hide what I have become, a skelaton.

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do, saying goodbye to the people you grew up with your whole life or maybe just saying goodbye to a teacher that has taught you for two years, still is the hardest thing ever. You no that you will miss them and yeah they all say you will forget them, it is true some will be forgotten but many wont be. The ones who left something on your heart and the ones who never did leave your side when you needed them the most, the one who just pissed you off and the person who could always get a smile out of you without even trying, the person who would crack out the lamest puns in the world, and the person who chips his tooth while doing push-ups, the one who always had a shinny head, and the one who we would take the piss out of everyday. You are the ones who will be missed dearly and some a lot more than other, but somehow you made your way into my heart and into many others, I hope all goes well for you guys as you carry down your paths wherever they may lead you whether your paths lead into eachother or stray far away from the others, in whatever you do you guys will NEVER be forgotten!!

I love the way you always tell you me you love me. The way you hold me in your arms and make me feel like nothing can touch me. The way you always tell me its going to be ok when things got to hard for me. The way you except me for me not anything more. You saved me when I needed someone the most you stood by my side the times when I was shitty and when I was the stupidest person in the world. I love you with all my heart.

Why don't you for once in your life stop lieing to everyone around you? Don't you see that your hurting so many people by the lies you make up everyday to make yourself seem worth while?

Why is it that everything lately is attacking me! Fist I get someones foot in my throat then the candy cain sliced my tounge, I mean COME ON!!

Maybe for once in your life you should look at yourself and what you do instead of making him out to be the bad person all the time.

I have finally found someone who actually knows whats its like to go through what I have to go through everyday but I dont no if im excited or scared...

In a moment everything can change.
The world cant wait for you.
So get passed yesterday and get
The courage to move on by
Yourself.

Just another blank space....

All the things you do
Effect everyone around you.

Found myself and ran away.
Your not hear to tell me
what you always used to tell me.
How do I no your watching over me?
Yesterday is gone, the day I didnt
find myself. The day I thought you
were watching over me.
What if something goes wrong?
I cant believe that it will be ok.
Because I dont no if you are really
there or not.

Talking to myself,
How am I supposed to feel?
I have to get away,
I cant take this!
It is driving me insane!
You tell me that you love me then
You throw your heart in reverse.
But I cant say goodbye.
Talking to myself
How am I supposed to feel?

"You are my light in the dark, you are the beating in my heart, you are my angel in the night."

You never tried. Your trying is asking whats wrong, not being told, and then walking away.

The one thing I cant stand about myself is the one thing you hate about me as well.

If I told you that you had shit on your foot what would you say?

You seem so lost in a world you think is your fairytale but the thing is your stuck in someone elses fairytale because your to scared to find yours because your to scared that it wont ever measure up to anyone eles.

I would tell you that I love you but the thing is I finally figured out that you will never love me back in the same way I love you...

So if I told you the truth are you seriously telling me you wouldnt run away?

Life is like a piece of wood with hundreds of knots in it.

You are to me
As
A car is to petrol.

Bla blah blah is the only thing that seems to be coming out my mouth lately. Shit here and shit there.

My sister once said this to me and it will stick with me forever..

"Your like a car travelling along the road and your going 10 kilometers an hour when you should be going 100 kilometers an hour. You have hit a speed bump and your not going fast enough to get over it. So whenever you get to the top of it you fall back down again because you dont have the gruntiness to get over it ."

" You are now offically going 80 kilometers per hour"

So you did it again?
Well dont!
Dont go back to the same
person who keeps your life
from moving forward..
You are so much better than that.
I no that and so do you

We all have something to hide,
But dont hide your pain
Cos you suck at hiding that
Your upset once more.

I may not no you that well but I do no when your upset because you always come to school a little bit later than usual and you walk straight to your room and you dont say hi you just walk as if you are in a dazz. I may not no you very well but I always no when something isnt right and lately something is wrong and I may not ask what it is because I no we have never been that close but that doesnt stop me worrying.. Please I miss the old you.. COME BACK!!.. Thats all we ask..

So you got hurt by him?? Well get used to it cos he would of hurt you one day. You didnt really think it would last did you?? Well let me tell you something he is dirt compared to you you can way better I have seen that you can so dont let your life be governed by some guy who treats you like shit!!
But I will always love you whatever you choose to do because you mean so much to me and I no whats it like to love a guy and that guy keeps making you come back for more but please we care about you and we dont wont to see this guy walk all over you again because whenever he does he hurts you and do you think its nice for us to see someone who we love fall to pieces because of the same guy over and over you again??
Xxo I love you...

Its nice to talk to you agin I missed you making me laugh all the time and now you do so I feel whole again. But you still have something about you its like you are still hiding the pain or something I just dont no but as time goes on I hope you will get better cos I do really care about you.. No matter what passed we have had you will still be someone I will care about for the rest of my life no matter how long or short it is.

Dont Act....

Please it will come to you as well you will think that your untouchable when actually you can be the most sickest person in the world so dont act all your life that you can fight anything because in the end when you cant fight any longer you wont no who to turn to because your to proud to admit to yourself and others around you that you have something wrong with you and you cant fight it by yourself....

Please.. Thats All I Ask

Goodbye forever. You were the only one who would help me through everything and now I dont no why but your the first and last person I think I ever will push away again. Ill never forget you. Everything I do will be for you because you were the one I trusted with my whole heart and now all you are is a person who knew me for a short time and now knows nothing about me and never will. I love you still but you just knew me way to well and im scared that if you find out anymore you will walk away from me and I couldnt live with that so I walked away first because I new it would cause less pain. You will forever be written on my heart because you are the only one who left footprints on it.

If I run then I dont have to face that I need help so if I just act like nothings wrong then you will never no whats goes on behind the mask. A face that is scarred from all the tears that run down it everyday the scarres of so long ago that just cant be covered with anything anymore. You will run like everyone who has seen it and im not ready for that yet because you mean to much to me now and I cant ever think of loosing you again.

So when your showering and you look at your arms is it right to see new bruises or scratches everytime?? Do I have to be that careful cos it is like if I walk into something so small I get a little black mark on my skin or maybe even a scratch. I dont no how and why they are there. The pills wont take away the little black marks I have to see everyday?? Nope they wont but I geuss that you wont me to take them so I have too??

Turn your back on me like everyone else has and all ill do is pretend like I dont care.

I saw you walking but I wouldnt let you see me because I didnt wont to see that one worried look you always have on your face everytime you see me ever since I told you.

The energy I once had seems to be so far away because I just carnt even find the energy to tell you whats wrong all I can is you wont ever know whats wrong because you never did care and you cant fool me into believing that you ever will. So just give up on trying because I wont let you in because I tried that once and all you did was turn your back on me.

Sugar is the best medicine for anything you can eat as much of it as you like and all it will do is bring a smile to your face for a short time but I geuss thats why its so good because it will never let you down. It will always keep the smile on your face...

Random thoughts....

Falling becomes a way of life. Falling down and not being able to stand up again without being dragged by my arms isnt, a way of life. But at the moment that is my life and not nowing whether I will be able to move my body when I wake up in the morning is something that I hope no one will ever face in thier lives. I thought it would never happen to me I would only dream of it but I geuss a persons worst fears can turn into real life.

The one person I thought I could turn to just turned there back on me.